When a heartless soul remembers you after a week.
What should I do?
What does she even loves about him…
Because he was there when she needed a man?
Because he’s capable of giving her a good life?
Because she simply wants to be married and stop all those time wasting?
Two years is enough to prove me wrong on all I’ve learnt about him.
We are not the same like he said.
He’s just a heartless soul that hurts me…
More than anyone could.
No more…
I will probably be single…
Till the day I die.
Just suddenly feel that this should happen.
While he could be happily attached…
The world is never fair…
Just like what he always like to say.
.
For now…
Even this simple wish wouldn’t come true.
He is never ever going to think of me during festive seasons again…
I’m never ever going to get him back.
I know I lose it all.
But he was never mine…
Just be gone and unspoken.
Like any other random people…
I’m okay…
New year new start?
Just like how she manage to change him?
Did you think about me on this cold day?
Even for a minute?
Shouldn’t have to be jealous…
Is over.
How difficult…
We are so unrelated now.
Can’t believe it…
Doesn’t matter to him I think.
As long as she’s happy.
I want to be proud…
I want to be happy for him.
But does it matter to you?
I don’t know what else I can do.
The result of happiness at least doesn’t belong to me.
Outsider.
I’m.
Steps and dreams are with her not me.
Dumb.
I realised that each time it happens…
I get alittle affect.
When you have went through bad times together…
Now that he’s doing well.
I’m just no longer part of it…
Probably just jealous.
Yes…
Still always comparing to her.
Which I feel is nothing.
I don’t like it.
Maybe I’m silly enough to brainwash myself.
That things was done to protect me…
But probably silly…
As he is just protecting himself.
But no matter what…
It doesn’t matter.
I’m not a sad soul who needs that extra something…
I wouldn’t want it…
If is without any feelings too.
Talking to him…
Although things may have changed.
I still managed to feel alittle of him.
Although I may not be the best person to talk to…
I smiled.
